I was 34 the first time I took a pregnancy test.

 

We went to see Dr. Fischl. He performs ultrasounds in a little room where people are always coming and going.

 

He wrote in his report: Patient with a four-year history of desiring to have a child (Kinderwunsch). Children and desire. German, the language of my infancy.

 

Then, another four years of doctors’ visits, operations, inseminations, healers.